I feel the edges of my mind begin to fray,
And the air in the room has grown too thin.
I find myself wishing for a quiet, locked place
To hold the weight of a heart that refuses to leave.
I opened doors for you I never knew I had;
I bared a soul I doubt I’ll ever show again.
Now I am lost in the “why” and the “how,”
Searching for where the light turned into rain.
How do I look for your likeness in a stranger?
How do I move when my feet are rooted in you?
You taught me to stand tall,
made me believe that my own reflection was true.
With a thousand things we left undone—
The meals unmade, the dates we never kept.
I carry a ghost of a ring and a promise,
And the forever I built while the rest of the world slept.
They tell me it’s over, but I cannot accept the end.
I would wait until the stars grow tired and dim.
You are the only shape that fits this hollow in my chest,
I am suffocating in the space where you should have been.
Please, let the “not today” become forever;
I am not ready to say goodbye to the light.
I only want to see you smile at me always,
In the life we were supposed to build tonight.

 

 

 

 

 

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